I was lucky because my parents never looked at me
having a disability.
I think that was a really good thing
'cause I never felt like I had any barriers.
I do feel like it gives me a lot of perspective.
I don't feel like I've had a harder life than anyone else,
it's just a different type of challenge.
Everyone has a challenge.
I just think that I've just found a way to make it work.
I just got told, as a person with a disability,
"Sport is not for you."
And I just accepted that.
When I was 12, one of my support assistants
at secondary school
brought in the local wheelchair basketball team
to my school to do a demo.
It completely changed my life that day.
And this whole world of sport got opened up to me.
You know, a lot happened for me.
It seemed very, very quickly.
At 18 years old, I sort of stepped on
the world stage of gymnastics.
And then very shortly after that
I started to achieve a lot of success
in YouTube and business.
I think, overtime I got caught in this sort of trap
of thinking that was all real.
I don't think I can say like every day is perfect.
Every day is a different challenge.
And just take it day by day.
My mental health started to deteriorate
and then when I'd get an injury,
which in my case, like I had neck surgery.
It was quite a bad one.
It sort of knocked me for six,
and I'd fall off a cliff.
And my behavior started to become more erratic.
I started to drink more alcohol.
I started to party more.
And before I know it I'm really, really struggling.
It's really important for people to know
that an alpha athlete's success
still has the same struggles as everyone else does
in day to their life.
I'd like to say I'm just a lad from Leeds,
that happened to work hard and do gymnastics.
Realized that I wasn't okay.
And then just having the courage to go, "You know what?
I'm not doing that good."
And everyone around you, they noticed
and I wasn't being myself.
And I think it's just trying to find a person,
even just one person that you trust
is going to remove judgment.
I think my advice is just choose
what you want to listen to.
Just put it away.
If you're not having a good day,
just put it down, read a book, go for a walk,
whatever it is that you want to do, allow yourself to do it.
And don't feel guilty.
If you're caught in the rat race of scrolling
and looking at everyone's perfect life, it is stressful.
It makes you anxious.
It adds pressure of trying to maintain
and keep up a certain image.
I try and be around people that make me feel good
like as much as I can.
Sometimes it can be pretty dark
when you're playing table tennis
and you've got your teammates around you,
they're all trying to beat you anyway in there.
But I think when I talk about those problems
to my teammates, and I say, "I feel a bit low today.
I'm not feeling it."
They can really help me.
So just being honest about it helped me.
Fitness and activity is massive.
For me, it's everything.
It's euphoric, it makes you feel
better about yourself instantly.
I've seen people completely turn their life around
just from entertaining fitness.
It does get better.
And there's always something for you to keep moving forward,
to carry on, to keep going.
There's a mountain in front of you to climb,
but I can promise you now, you can climb it
and you can get to the light again.
And I'd implore anyone just to try and have that courage
like I did, just to ask for help.